hmm?

oh cos nothing is lost; it's just frozen in frost

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 22:07:25 GMT

what precedes it is emphasised, by its omission.

first experience of snowfall today. woke up and view out my window looked queer; the background didnt look as clear as before, but it wasnt the condensates on my window. it was the snowflakes gently floating toward the ground.

so a little update on major happenings

was in nyc for thanksgiving. arrived in the morning at 6, freezing our butts off. first stop times square for breakfast. then went to the metropolitan museum of art, which was enormously huge, spend a couple of hours but only realised we explored one mere wing of the museum. caught west side story on broadway. technically, it was excellent. the plot was too contrived for my liking though.

second day we went to flushing, which was essentially chinatown, but not called chinatown because another place in nyc is already called chinatown. had cheap dim sum, then went down to wall street to walk about. ground zero, statue of liberty in the distance silhouetted by the setting sun. empire state building for the night view.

black friday ! didnt buy anything. just went to hugest macy's in the world to walk around while the others shopped. Went to soho after, which was another street filled with shops. saw my first topshop/man here, there. On the way to soho (or maybe it was considered part of soho, unsure) we were walking down spring street, which was exactly like haji lane, but much much more posh upmarket and huge. Should go back to really shop sometime. Went back to times square, to ripley's.

saturday, walked our asses to the museum of natural history for dinosaurs ! walked because the fucking train services werent running because of maintenance/weekday only service. back to pittsburgh in the evening.

and now its finals week.

._.

lifting shadows off a dream

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 22:40:12 GMT

so i just had this weird experience that is a little analogous to how your computer reloads whatever data that is maintained in ram when waking from sleep/hibernation/dead battery.

okay so i was waking from sleep as well, but it took awhile longer than usual. and -i think because i was feeling guilty for sleeping so much- but all i could think about was my ece homework (programming in assembly). i kept thinking about how i needed to do logical shift rights, and at which position within the label and branch instruction. i wasnt totally conscious, was kinda nua.

and i kept drifting in and out of sleep. each time being slightly conscious and all i was thinkning of was that freaking bit shifting operation. and i know that i was drifting in and out because each time i would check my clock. and the time just kept changing.

1215.
1310
1330
1415

the thoughts just kept coming back on their own. maybe this is the way you make your subconscious think for you.

and the leaves have all fallen

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 00:56:13 GMT

why does my roommate get woken up by the sound of my mouseclicks, but not by his own snores ?

oh the mysteries of life

ceteris paribus

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 04:50:22 GMT

theres never a good time for nostalgia

edit: this just in.

A MINUS WHAT THE HELL

(this is the only place i can say that)

fields of gold

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 16:52:25 GMT

im relacing at the new gates centre lounge area. drinking my morning, uh afternoon, coffee and munching on a sesame bagel because the food place is too crowded. apparently the caramel macchiato isnt a huge drink (starbucks butchered it). the real drink is really just espresso sized. two ounches of coffee. so im having a double espresso with a shot of caramel instead.

nobody else around. weird.

the scent of fall fills the air. the first sight of nature i get as i walk out my dorm and down the stairs is the tree with half yellowed leaves, just outside the window. the leaves have that kind of maple leaf shape. insanely strong gusts today. you can see the grass rustling in waves as the wind tears through. fallen leaves dance up and down vortices on the hillside. and all this i see from where im sitting now.

i guess i can understand how people get into photography.

safe behind glass walls. because its so damn cold and the wind messes up my hair.

bill gates just opened this building last tuesday. and no i didnt get to see him. they only let the damn cs kids listen to his speech in person.

g20 came and went. riots, tear gas, smashed store fronts accompany the voices chanting through loudhailers, with the police motorcade patrolling up and down forbes ave.

caught nothing of it. was busy with homework. and getting tear gassed in the army once is enough for me.

my floormates tried to get in to the action, but the police blocked off street leading to the riot zone. nobody could get near. crazy americans.

my life for aiur

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 10:08:39 GMT

its 5am. hahah. i think i cant sleep from all the friday night starcraft adrenaline. my apm kinda low, macro and micro are horrible. need to practice more.

just had 2 midterms. got back one of them. well, did better than expected. everyone was saying oh how easy it was and everything, and i was thinking to myself, fuck i screwed up so bad because i couldnt do one induction question the right way.

in the end i did better.

this got me thinking.

people are pulling all nighters and spending hours on homework (not sure if the homework even warrants that amount of time spent), and saying "what do you expect, its cmu".

they say it with a certain air.

i find it a little analogous to what people say about the army experience. or their own life experiences in general.

everyone tends to exaggerate things. personal experiences. such as army, like omg army was shit blah blah.

when im hearing these things from people right here, im thinking the exact same thing. why doesnt anyone else realise it ?

or maybe im just fortunate enough to be given some perspective.

(haha joseph.)

and we'll sit in the sand writing our plans

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 04:57:37 GMT

ah i havent really thought of anything really meaningful to put up here.

i think i treat this blog the way i approach conversation. i dont say anything unless i think it is at least meaningful in some miniscule way. meaningful in the sense that the other party finds something interesting in what i have to say.

reminded of this blog because xl randomly responding to my musings. and i dont get that often.

is the t pronounced ? or silent ?

realised i didnt make a bawwwww post before i left. neither did i make an arrival post when i settled in.

do i think that this is a milestone worth mentioning ? milestone yes, worth mentioning.. maybe not so much.

this milestone will probably be as ______ ( i had this word.. but i just couldnt get it. i spent like 5 minutes thinking about it. a singular word that sums up your entire outlook, perspective, way of life. perhaps a synonym of doctrine, dogma.) redefining, in the same scope and magnitude relative to my current (or now, predeparture) life circumstance, as back then when i first stepped into ri.

revolutionary ? no doesnt quite have that ring to it.

i dont think i was quite emotional when i left. perhaps it was the lure of adventure that dominated over the unwillingness to leave things behind. if there even was that.

i think it is that there is no sense of loss. on my part. i dont feel as if i am giving anything up, almost certain that there is something to return to in sg. friendships, family. such certainty warrants no feelings of melancholy.

but what if such tangible certainty proves false ? not by the fault of any but that of time. the tethers slowly decaying away, barely noticed. that will be the real tragedy

things were different in reflection

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 20:03:35 GMT

obligatory monthly post. havent been in here for more than a month.

well i have 2 weeks to go.

i feel like i need to 'put my business in order', much like what someone planning his own suicide would do.

dont think that im procrastinating anything, but time sure passes fast.

keep thinking that i have plenty of time to go. thinking that ill start really packing when august comes around. well august is coming around this weekend.

not like the timing of it helps as well. juxtopositioned are the beginning of everyone's lives - starting uni - and the ending of my time here (temporary or otherwise). i cant do anything uni related until i get there anyway.

maybe ill let pragmatism take over while packing, and let sentimentality out of the box when i arrive.

from dune's appendix.

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 12:59:59 GMT

"

There is a fifth force which shaped religious belief, but its effect is so universal and profound that it deserves to stand alone.

This, of course, is space travel - and in any discussion of religion, it deserves to be written thus:

SPACE TRAVEL !

"

haha hilarious

ARGH PIMPLES

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 14:56:04 GMT

if you do something/attend an event, but no photos of you at said activity appears on facebook, were you really doing it ?