ah i havent really thought of anything really meaningful to put up here.

i think i treat this blog the way i approach conversation. i dont say anything unless i think it is at least meaningful in some miniscule way. meaningful in the sense that the other party finds something interesting in what i have to say.

reminded of this blog because xl randomly responding to my musings. and i dont get that often.

is the t pronounced ? or silent ?

realised i didnt make a bawwwww post before i left. neither did i make an arrival post when i settled in.

do i think that this is a milestone worth mentioning ? milestone yes, worth mentioning.. maybe not so much.

this milestone will probably be as ______ ( i had this word.. but i just couldnt get it. i spent like 5 minutes thinking about it. a singular word that sums up your entire outlook, perspective, way of life. perhaps a synonym of doctrine, dogma.) redefining, in the same scope and magnitude relative to my current (or now, predeparture) life circumstance, as back then when i first stepped into ri.

revolutionary ? no doesnt quite have that ring to it.

i dont think i was quite emotional when i left. perhaps it was the lure of adventure that dominated over the unwillingness to leave things behind. if there even was that.

i think it is that there is no sense of loss. on my part. i dont feel as if i am giving anything up, almost certain that there is something to return to in sg. friendships, family. such certainty warrants no feelings of melancholy.

but what if such tangible certainty proves false ? not by the fault of any but that of time. the tethers slowly decaying away, barely noticed. that will be the real tragedy